The Note

How is it like to feel endless suffering again and again and again?
I don’t want to know how it is, not anymore. I don’t want to feel anymore.

Living in fear, screaming in a dream, being haunted by nightmares every night. I’m afraid and tired of it.
I don’t want this any more. One step, one only step between world of pain and paradise. But the only road leads to Hell.
Emotions lost their brightness, feelings turned to burnt dust.
Where are the sleepless nights I was longing for?
Where is the wonder of awe and magic of love?
Why is it all gone?
I became only a memory on the dusty bookshelf. Lost and forgotten like a  broken toy once loved.
Or never loved.

Storytime passed by and my time is passing too.
For long years I’ve been longing for the only dream. It lies in you.
Keep it for me when I’m gone.

Save me in your heart.