Later
I’m done with it all
Better
Time will be still once

All hopes are forgotten
To be a better version of me
It’s no more a problem
Not to me, but them
Their own suffocating sin

All the misery
I’m dwelling in
All the sins
I cannot forgive
They haunt me still
But this is also me
My own world within

The sooner
I’m done with this
The sooner
I’ll reach the bliss
There is none other

The more I hope
The deeper I go
I don’t want anything more
Just let me go home

Still cannot forget and forgive
Everything rotting in me
Every scar, every bit
I leave it deep in to see
What will leave of me

Look at me
What do you see?
A monster? A sinner?
A virgin? Just a lost believer

I am what I am
No matter how bad
No matter how good
You want me to be
Every part of me is true

It’s all in your head
All the good, the bad
I am just me
I wish you could see

A monster, a sinner
A child, lost believer
All the memory I keep within
And all my love I hide so deep

Never matters how long
Never matters how far
Longing forever more
For what and who you are

Drown in bliss with me
Let’s dwell in awe together
Promise it’s not a dream
Or get lost with me in this madness
Forever and ever

My lonely dream
A way through the lost world
Untold, unseen
Lifetime memories undone
Where I once chose to be
But not anymore

My soul, my dear
Find me before dawn falls
Wipe away my tears
And caress all hidden hopes

My love, my only home
Like it was so long ago
I see you deep inside
Like a promise to my heart

Come in, my love
Forget long road
Dear, rest now
Welcome home

Tell me I’m crazy
Tell me I’m a psycho
I know, I know it
Babe, I know it all

In the dark of the night
I think of you with sweet sigh
In midnight awe I imagine you’re here
Right by my side, so near

Tell me I’m crazy
Tell me I’m a psycho
Oh, baby, baby
I know it all, love

I’m just so crazy about you
Falling deeper into madness
Close your eyes to feel it’s true
I’m not telling lies
I feel so deep for you

Tell me I’m crazy
Tell me I’m psycho
And you’re right, dear
And I know it all

I remember all the pains, all the scars
Like the taste of wisdom on bloody lips
I feel it still deep within, reflecting in eyes
With ashes of love and light of bliss

Darkness within helps me move on
The one that lives so deep
My eternal inner night, dear awe
Hidden dream of mine, my sin

Please, please, please
Help me to release
This inner hell
My darkest pain
Please, please, please
Forgive my sins
Give me light
Save my life

Sweet kiss on lips
To touch those hidden strings
And feel relief long gone
Forgotten truth of pure love

Please, please, please
Help me to release
This inner hell
My darkest pain
Please, please, please

My soul longs for every drop
Of deep and sacred love
I keep inside the world once lost
Among long forgotten hopes

Please, please, please
Help me to release
This inner hell
My darkest pain
Please, please, please
Forgive my sins
Give me light
Save my life

Another day, another time
I lie on the ground
Again loosing my mind

Through hopeless dreams
Still hidden within
I long to see what’s lost in me

Unleash the truth
Let yourself just be
The cradle of youth
Was always that we hide deep in

I long till the end
For someone to see
The real me
Not their own dream
And offer their hand

Without regret
Without hesitation
To release and forget
To find compassion

I long till the end
For someone to see
The real me
Not their own dream
And offer their hand

I am just dust in the wind
Silent whisper in midnight still
I am but a white feather
Slowburn dream with high fever

I am not a sin, but a too far dream
Broken yet not torn apart
Darling, what do you see
When you look at me
With your ever open heart?

Not a masterpiece, but still some kind of art
Something beautiful yet crackled inside
Tell me if there is still a hope deep in heart
If I have completely lost my mind

I don’t believe in me anymore
But oh this damn hope
Something that still keeps me in this world
Never letting me go

Darling, what do you see
When you look at me
With your ever open heart?

Not a masterpiece, but still some kind of art
Something beautiful yet crackled inside
Tell me if there is still a hope deep in heart
If I have completely lost my mind

I’m lost to the core
Not rotten yet, but cold
Take me home
And make me warm

Before it’s not too late
Forgive me, Lord
So I have nothing to regret
As I leave this world
Without any sin I’ll never forget

Darkness helps me to see
What I’ve lost long ago
Those who were never real
But they still gave me hope

This long empty black road
Leads me there
Where we see the end of the world

Before it’s not too late
Forgive me, Lord
So I have nothing to regret
As I leave this world
Without any sin I’ll never forget

Before I lose myself to the core
Like a child that was never meant to be born
I long for some hope still lost deep
Tell me that I’m still real

Before it’s not too late
Forgive me, Lord
So I have nothing to regret
As I leave this world
Without any sin I’ll never forget

My soul feels so cold
Like it’s made of stone
Beyond the edge of the world
Please, hold me on

So I have nothing to regret
As I leave this world
Without any sin I’ll never forget

I used to be like a mother
To those who are lost so deep
And they don’t even bother
Open their eyes to see

I used to be a good one
To save them from themselves
But I searched for love
Where was no better chance

One day the mirror showed me
A ghost of real me hidden so deep
That even I cannot reach

Dark deep ocean
Quivering within
Blessed with passion
Of an endless dream
Just a touch of hoping child
I’ve lost so deep in my heart

Echoes of the past
Shadows of yesterday
Kisses of dark lust
Covered with ashy veil
Of black torn scars

My soul lives beyond crystal petals of cherry blossom
Where pure innocence still lies uncovered, untouched
Dear hope rests deep within, somewhere on my heart’s bottom

I used to be the one so kind
So understanding and forgiving
I used to be naive like a child
But no more, oh, my sweet darling

Dark deep ocean
Quivering within
Blessed with passion
Of an endless dream
Just a touch of hoping child
I’ve lost so deep in my heart

It’s been so long
This longing within
For the one I’ve never seen
It’s time to let it go

Not forget, but leave it silently behind
Just to let poor hoping heart feel one more time

I’m standing in front of several doors
Ones from the past
Still caressing old scars
Searching for the one among all the souls

It’s hard to believe
There is a way
So hard to forgive
Myself for every day
Of tearful longing
I’ve been through still
Lying about I’m okay

Now I close my eyes and fall
To let it all go
I let it flow
Through every inch of my soul
Just to release it all
Or at least be gone

I close my eyes and let it go
My heart doesn’t want it anymore
No more games in pain and hope
Bring me home once more