Asking Myself

I ask myself what’s wrong
What’s the pain that is tearing me apart
Where should I go
To let the hope burn in my heart

Deep inside
I look into my mind
And see the child
Little and scared
Ungone yet

A tiny heart full of light
Blue eyes looking with hope
Little girl longing for her dreams so bright
She still doesn’t know what she’s looking for

Yet there is a dark side
Eyes of a virgin, glance of a whore
Take me now, I love it hard
Ever moaning and asking for more

You know both sides of me
But the world knows only one
Even me don’t know what lies within
But heart longs for pure love

Tell me what’s wrong with me
Why the heart weeps
Why I see these dreams
What lives in me so deep in
What am I supposed to be?

Lost little child or a cold whore
I’ve lost my path
Left broken to the world

Wandering around in my mind
I see again and again the way
The one I’ve lost and have to find
At the edge of each day

What should I say
To be heard and understood?
What did I get
Seeking the beauty of truth?
At the edge of day
I hope to find that drop of youth
I could never forget

One and only dream to find a dear soul
Wherever I go
Will my search go on
Or it’ll end here and now?

The little child within takes my hand
Looks deep in my eyes
All the tears are gone there and then
This moment she smiles