If you only knew

A lifelong day to cover the night
Silver cold sip of spring air
Poisoning my heart with sunlight
Cruel laws of life took away my breath

I’ve got my own reasons
To ruin the world
Deep reasons of my own
To burn it all
Chaos echoing deep inside

A path for ghosts
One day of the lost
Cold fallen world

Lifetime dreams dissolve in the dawn
Hopes drown in tide of moonlit score
I drew this pale-blue world of my own
To dream and stay away from cold

My lost agony will remain
Deep inside your heart’s pain
Forever within dark chaos of your soul

I’ve got my own reasons
To ruin the world
Deep reasons of my own
To burn it all
Chaos echoing deep inside

A path for ghosts
One day of the lost
Cold fallen world

I’ve got my own reasons
To burn it all
To call for ghosts
Deep reasons of my own
To stay on that shore
Of my own dreamworld

Memories fade into the dark
Haunting me every time
With heart’s last beat
I take this moment in
Letting the cold drink my soul
It will be the last
And morning takes
The agony away

Ever after never came
But heart believes in miracles
And I’m still waiting for eternal rest
Hoping for a life that never was
A part of me – unholy, unworthy
Beyond the dreams I hold
I am only one

Alone and lost I wished to face death
Fighting my own demons till my last breath
In the end I’ve lost my hopeless faith

For the heart
To beat another life
For the dreams
I’ve never had inside
For the life
I was never worth
After all that I’ve become

I am only one
Lost and alone
Fading with pale rainy dawn

The pain will embrace
The morning breaks that moonlight takes
My deepest dreams are now flying free
Among the thorns that keep me
Pale ghosts hold my hand
In this fading Never-Land
Where I’m only one
Lost cold and alone

You played the song of my life
You wrote the verse for my heart

Who cares I was in love
Who dares to enter this world
Eternity without a shadow of hope

You played with porcelain heart of mine
Everything is but a part of game
Storyteller tells another beautiful lie
To chain, to blame and to tame
A little dreamer for a betrayal never done

Rest calm, I’m gone forever
Gone alone
When the morning comes
The wind and my soul’s ashes
Together will be gone

I closed my eyes
Bleeding mirrors of burnt sky
My mind is blurry
Praying for the last dear memory
Chasing the demons within
I write last line for this fading story

With last haunting moment I’m flowing
My hope is flying high
But I’m still waiting here frozen and lonely
Lost in this heartless night

Falling raindrops are calling
Silently howling to me

Walking through this dark maze
Labyrinth of lost mysterious grace
I’m locked in this world of yesterday
Having no place to go, nowhere to hide
Seeking for a spark of light

Tiny hope rests inside
Not in mine, but in your heart

I’m hopeless, restless
Lost alone in the darkness
Why did the world become so cold?
When have I missed pale dawn?
Are you a ghost too
Among this waves blue?

Did you hear a call?
Another pure morn
It’s time to go
We belong to another world

White shore is awaiting for us
Washed by wistful sea of stars
No more tears, no more fears

Autumn wind blew away a fallen tear

Don’t try to fix me
I’m not broken
Don’t try to tell me
What should I do and what shouldn’t
I’m the master of my own will

Forget your memory
If you think it’s illusion, nightmare fantasy
Forgive the tears you’ve lost
They never knew other hopes

Dreamers are always lost
In their own worlds
Hoping to find another place
For their eternal rest

I’m not broken
Losing my tears every dawn
Waiting on that shore alone
Keeping your bed always warm
And my door open
I’m not broken
Still hoping
For the end of this agony
My dying memory
Will remain in the darkness

After all these years of hope and trust
The only I have is unholy fading lust
In this insanity left no compliance
The only that remains is silence

Don’t try to fix me
I’m not broken
Don’t try to tell me
What should I do and what shouldn’t
I’m the master of my own will

I’m the master of my own will

What will leave within
If you lose all your dearest dreams?
What will guide you into the ocean
If there left no spark of passion?

Let all your high hopes fly free
They are but ashes, burnt dust
Flaming eyes of ever lust
Childish tears won’t heal
Your deepest fear within
You’ll bear it till the very last breath
Heart will bury the faith
One rainy day

Shall I guide you?
Your dreamworld, your rules
But I wrote that deep blue

Show me dark side of never fading pride
Glory is fleeting, fame has two faces
Which one will guide you?
Which one will choose you
Knowing the price
Heart will turn to ice

Shall I guide you?
Your dreamworld, your rules
But I wrote that deep blue

What will leave within
If you lose all your dearest dreams?
What will guide you into the ocean
If there left no spark of passion?

The song that angels sing above

Whispers of high waters
Among the midnight howling
The song that calls
Silence of dreaming, darkness of falling

Eternity is howling
Silently calling

Dreams turned into nightmares
Clear eyes blurred with sight so insane
Thoughts deep in the mind
Everything within became pale blind

Eternity is the only way
The only way away…

To run away, to save yourself
The only way to escape
Paths entwined becoming the one
Leading through the deepest circles of Hell
None has seen the end
No prayer helped, no light saved
Lost souls in that darkness insane

Among the midnight thorns
In the world of anger
In the world of pain torn
No prayer for a lost saint
No shelter for a dreamer
Eternity embraced you there
Keeping your dear soul forever

Eternity is the only way
Away from hell and pain
Away from howling fall
Away from it all…

Look at me, what do you see?
Take my hand, what do you feel?
Just come with me back through your memory
I’ll save you from it all, the fears unseen, dark gathering