She looked through the bus window. Rain stopped, but clouds still covered the sky. Her thoughts flew to that faded memory… the sweetest one, the dearest one. Listening to the music on her mp3-player she wanted to cry. No special reason… just shs felt sad. Tiny ray of sun warmed her and she closed her eyes. Over the hills and far away… yes, she wished to be so far from here. Away from thoughts, away from pain, away from this suffering… Autumn. This season always made her sad and thoughtful. And at the same time she felt so good… Because she found her heart one autumn eve. She missed him in silence.
For The Dark
Call me through the distance
Give me a chance
To feel you’re mine
For one night
Let me fell
For the light
Let heart beat
For the dark
Let me dream
In love with your dark side
Holding your hand in dream of light
I’m walking again through the tide
Say my name
Through the time
Give sweet pain
To my heart
For one night…
Come, make me believe
That love is stronger than lie
Make me feel, make me dream
That through the time you’re mine
Revive Me
Be my flight above dark field
Be my guiding light through the night
Paint cloudy midnight sky
With glittering stars
Draw silence with rhymes
Show pale memory I tried to hide
Fly with a dream
Far across the sea
Fly with withering memory
Through a frozen field
Come to me
Be my flight through this night
Be my guiding light
Be a star, be the sky
Be the one who wrote my life
Like a breath under water
Like cold ice in midsummer night
I need you here forever
Fly with a dream
Far across the sea
Fly with withering memory
Through the cold wind
Come to me
Come to me, be the one whoever wrote my life
Fly across the sea to paint this night
Come and revive my memory
Please, do it for me
To Feel
I will break
Through the darkness
I will flow
Just to reach your silent dream
Into madness
I will fall
Through the silence
I will call
One pale memory to revive
To feel your dawn rising
To dream above the horizon
To feel that I am alive
Through the cold
I will run
Through the world
I will shout
Just hear my call through the crowd
Far Across The Sea
Join this one pale memory’s ride
Forget dark pride’s reflection
Drown in calm waters of passion
Take my breath while I sleep in your bed
Save my life while I rest in your arms far from there
Cut this distance
Come one autumn night
Give fate a chance
Let me dream in silver moonlight
Come with whispering stream
Take my fleeting dream
Heal the wounds so deep
On your shoulder I’m silently falling asleep
Come to me through the miles
Far across the sea
Come to me through dark times
Enter my midnight fantasy
I wish you were here tonight
Lying right here by my side
Holding my hand to shield me from nightmares
Dreaming with heart that still dares
To feel, to beat, to love and bleed
Come with a fallen leaf
With warm autumn wind
Come with a midnight dream
With dark night fantasy…
Synkkä Uni
Crying with a weeping sound
Sweetest memories dying
Silently suffocating
Dark dream covered all earth
Sleeping mind, resting well
Dwelling in Hell
Last will of withering thought
Treat her well
She is but the last farewell
Little princess in her prison cell
Dance on a frozen
Grass
Sing on sharp broken
Glass
Dream living a fantasy
Feel dying with memory
Whispering silently to myself
Crying and laughing
Welcome sweet insanity
Singing in the dark corner of room
Playing a song of the moon
I know we’ll meet soon
In Heaven or Hell
Let me embrace you
Let me warm your wounded heart
Let me heal your bleeding scars
And then I let you
Break my heart and take my soul
Let me be your last farewell
Sweet Trina, dream in tear
Last breath to feel alive
Burning smile of dying pride
Precious Trina, my dear
What have you done?
Why did you make them rape your heart?
Ripping off those wounds bleeding so bad
Cutting deeper, tearing apart
Those veins that made you alive for another regret
Before The Dawn
Through the waves in sea
I need you here
Right here so near
Come to me next night
Just come, hear the call
Don’t disappear when stars fall
Just come to me
Lie by my side
Just come and dream
With me tonight
Across the field of moonlit dew
My dreams are flowing to you
Beyond the sea, on white cold shore
I’ll meet you where my love was born
Just come, hear the call
Don’t disappear before the dawn
Just come to me
Take off the veil
Just come and feel
Sweet tide of dream
Just come, I need you
Wanna feel you through the night
Just come, I feel you
Through the abyss of darkest time
Just come, hear the call
Don’t fade away with silent dawn
Just come, dream near
Warm my heart with dear song
Come, I need you here
I want you here
Just come before the dawn
Just come, hear my call
Don’t disappear before the dawn…
Letter To Myself
A thorn in your eye and heart
Dear Maritta, hope you could feel
Cold pain in your deepest wound
Take a hand that never needs you
Kiss those lips which never calls you
Give him your heart without regret
And watch yourself bleeding to death
Dear Maritta, I hope you’re out of pride
Walking cold and pale into the lost tide
Dear Maritta, I hope you know
What part you chose to follow
Lick the scars you wished to heal
Drink the blood that gave you life
Suffocate with sigh you caught to breathe
Die for another beautiful lie
Dear Maritta, I know you are watching me
Through the reflection from the dark side
Dear Maritta, I feel you near
Catch me when I take the last step into the silence
P.S.
Burn this letter, save yourself.
They are coming for your soul.
The voice of the night, elven light and heart of a wolf.
For Another Forlorn
But you don’t hear that song
You cannot see that love
Resting deep in me, lost in cursed darkness
Broken-hearted, burnt-winged
I lie in abyss, alone and cold
Wishing so hard, hoping so bad
That you’re mine without regret
Open your heart, close your eyes
To find a right path leading you to paradise
Wake up, dear boy
It’s time to play
Last step to take
Dream, play with your another toy
Make me forget those midnight tears I’ve lost
Let me feel the warmth of a touch
Sweetest kiss, just let me feel, am I asking too much?
Guideline through the dark, poisoned dart
Through the heart
Angelic light, deepest song
For another soul forlorn
Rhymes Through The Veins
Catch my breath while I’m here
Take my hand, just don’t let go
That everything we lost before
Don’t make me think it was in vain
The sight, the night, rhymes through my veins
Don’t make me fade in dawn again
Vanishing, withering, slowly fading
With one last chance, in one last dance
Don’t make me feel it was in vain
The tears, the call, the pain
Through the miles and time
I wonder if you are alright
Every night I wonder why should I cry
Thinking of you became a crime
Don’t make me think it was in vain
The sight, the night, rhymes through my veins
Don’t make me fade in dawn again
Vanishing, withering, slowly fading
The one to make me feel like a girl in rags
While others made me a frozen queen
The one to make me believe in my tomorrow
While the world wrote my wish not to live
Don’t make me think it was in vain
The night, the dream, the cry through the crowd
Don’t make me think I will feel again
For someone else, just turn around
I cannot rise without your hand
Don’t make me feel again that pain
Poison in veins, sweet death in blood
Last petal of life around my chest
Coiling around my heart
Calling me into the darkness
Poison in veins, sweet death in blood
Last breath of life through my memory
For the one last chance to kiss the heart
And fade away without a shade of regret
Forever in the dreamless vanity