I’m searching for answers
Living deep in my mind
Walking along this long road
No soul to join this ride
None to lead me through

I feel your presence near
Right behind
I feel you are here

Cruel and selfish
Deep curious wish
To run across the field
To fly above the sky
To make love to the stars so high
Cold and forlorn magic untouched
Innocence revealed in silence
Closed eyes of fate
Forbidden steps ahead
Your ever dream lies in me

I’m searching for answers
Gone with time long ago
Walking alone in this cruel world
None to call, none to save
I’m falling for all the fallen angels

I feel your presence near
Right behind
I feel you are here
Deep in my mind

Join this last ride of the day
Fall to lead me astray
Live like it’s the last day on Earth
Tomorrow will never hurt
Take a step, touch my hand
Open your eyes, my child, don’t be afraid

Cold and forlorn magic untouched
Innocence revealed in silence
Closed eyes of fate
Forbidden steps ahead
Your ever dream lies in me

As well as I don’t bother everyone with my poetry only I’ve decided to write a little list about me, my life. 😉
I guess that it could be interesting or just fun. Once my friend shared this tricky idea with me and I hope she was right with it, hehe.
Let’s start!

1. I like to read stories about The Moomins listening to Imaginaerum by Nightwish before a sleep. That makes me feel better and believe in fairytales. And also it’s just a perfect combination to my mind. 🙂

2. I sing in the shower.

3. I grow pepper mint on my windowsill. Neverfading reserve of mint for tea.

4. I’m a very emotional person. Watching movies, cartoons, series etc./listening to the music I cry if it touches me deep. I cry really often, hah.

5. Also (if someone doesn’t know) besides poetry I write short (and not very short) stories. They look more like that kind of diary where you write your deepest wishes and secret dreams. Melancholic, emotional, sincere. Maybe one day I’ll post them here.

A dreamy child falling asleep
Tiny fists on a snow white pillow
She holds tight pale veil of sweet dream
Flowing below the dark cover of the night
Following her innocent heart

Sins turned to dust, silence broke down this night
She listened to his midwinter lullaby
Walking in the air every dream

Bare feet running the the cold floor
Just to see where the nightingale sings
Childish fears awaiting behind dark door
Taking care of cruelest deadlist sins

She fell asleep dreaming of untouched love
Of wise owl and pure innocent dove
Of dreamy nightingale locked in the cage

A dreamy child falling asleep
Tiny fists on a snow white pillow
Bare feet walking cold floor
Hearing voices behind the door
She’s following his innocent heart

Listening to his midwinter lullaby

Deep silent dream resting in me
With a feel, coldest sin
Winter wind, autumn chill
Your word walking through my memory

A kindest heart made me feel
Everything I used to hope for

Hope singing deep within
Kiss of a heart I used to love
Beauty of never gone memory
Silent thrill of my feel isn’t enough

A purest heart made me forget
Everything I once believed

Wind will bear my breath
So far across the ocean to West
To make you feel my hidden presence
To walk in midwinter air
To catch my faith
Just take a step ahead
Touch my hand
Just to know I’m real

A kindest heart made me feel
Everything I used to hope for
Made me forgive
Every sin in a broken mirror
A purest heart made me forget
Everything I once believed

Wind will bear my breath
So far across the ocean to West
To make you feel my hidden presence
To walk in midwinter air
To catch my faith
Just take a step ahead
Touch my hand
Just to feel that you’re here

Lost in dangerous mind of dark night
Forbidden breath of frozen memories
Dreaming deep in your heart
I’m walking the ice of cold midnight sky

Saving a breath
For both you and me
One prayer, one step
To join the eternity

I saved that broken heart to give it to you
Just heal
I saved that hoping heart to feel for you
Believe

Searching the meaning of life for so long
To understand
Every line, every lie, every rhyme
Every single cry
I saved deep inside…

I saved that broken heart to give it to you
Just heal
I saved that hoping heart to feel for you
Believe

Eternity is but a fleeting moment
Lost in the dark, deep inside
Within that loving heart
Deep in that broken heart I saved for you

Hoping verse for a heartkiller’s pain
White memories on a school play-ground
Old thrill is slowly fleeting away
Broken and lost on the pale dead ground

Silent night across the sea
Peace of long kiss, fading eternity
Long lost love sleeping deep in me
Storyteller’s heart writing my memory

I saved that broken heart to give it to you
Just heal
I saved that hoping heart to feel for you
Believe
Eternity is but a fleeting moment
Lost in the dark, deep inside
Within that loving heart
Deep in that broken heart I saved for you

Walking through fleeting ghosts, pale lust
Broken mirrors, fading hopes
Pale faces vanishing with withering past
Trembling voice, shaking hands
Unlocking the door with the third knock
Waiting for the tide taking my soul back in the end

Following footprints of the snow white
Flying with a dream unseen
I long for a never written storytime

Calling for the days long gone
For a last sigh of swansong
I took my last breath for the one I love

If it takes eternity to wait in-between Heaven and Hell
Will you wait for me?
If it takes forever to bear a dream
Will you save it for me?
If it takes thousands miles to come here
Will you come to me?
If it takes forever will you wait for me?

Walking broken glass of smashed dreams
Lying in burning flames
Bearing a cross of pure feels
Last breath of mine called your name

For a last sigh of swansong
I took my last breath for the one I love

If it takes eternity to wait in-between Heaven and Hell
Will you wait for me?
If it takes forever to bear a dream
Will you save it for me?
If it takes thousands miles to come here
Will you come to me?
If it takes forever will you wait for me?

If it takes forever to wait for me
Will you come to see a dream in my eyes?
If it takes forever to come to me
Will you stay with me in the end?

If it takes eternity to wait in-between Heaven and Hell
Will you wait for me?
If it takes forever to bear a dream
Will you save it for me?
If it takes thousands miles to come here
Will you come to me?
If it takes forever will you wait for me?

Silently knock at my window

Awake in the dream’s embrace
Lying on deadly grey grass
I still feel that I’m locked in a golden cage
Broken mirrors, sharpest knives of reality’s maze

I walk under water to dwell in silent symphony
Drowning only more into lustful sea of your memory

Clock struck twelve
It’s time to go
Run away, just flow
Escape will set me free
Embrace of faith, my pure dying hope
Time to crop, time to cut the rope
Secret path, forgotten road
Covered with last winter snow leading me back home

Night by the lake, kiss by an old oak
Silver leaves are frozen still
In pale hands of withered memory
Lost deep within silent feel
Of dark hair my trembling hand stroked

Take a step ahead, move tears away
Look at the stars, they’ll show you a way
To the beginning of a new dawn of our day

Clock struck twelve
It’s time to go
Run away, just flow
Escape will set me free
Embrace of faith, my pure dying hope
Time to crop, time to cut the rope
Secret path, forgotten road
Covered with last winter snow leading me back home

Era of true heart’s love, painted kites and snowy chimneys
Storytime and the river ghosts, dreams of every man
Swansong fading in time, hope of dove, long sleepless nights
Echoing thought through a kindest heart, forgotten lost days of mine

Clock struck twelve
It’s time to go
Run away, just flow
Escape will set me free
Embrace of faith, my pure dying hope
Time to crop, time to cut the rope
Secret path, forgotten road
Covered with last winter snow leading me back home

Embrace of faith, my pure dying hope
Time to crop, time to cut the rope
Secret path, forgotten road
Covered with last winter snow leading me back home

Silent night around nightingale’s dream
Forgotten feel reviving me
Cold cruel world chasing lost hope,
The hope surrounding my hoping heart

Clock struck twelve
It’s time to go
Run away, just flow
Escape will set me free
Embrace of faith, my pure dying hope
Time to crop, time to cut the rope
Secret path, forgotten road
Covered with last winter snow leading me back home

Bound in a mirror of waters
Drowning in cristal deep ocean
I’m lost in a glance, sunk in your eyes

It’s a wonderful trap
I cannot escape, no I cannot escape

Why do I feel for you
Forever more?
Why do I want you
Like never before?
Falling asleep I drown in your eyes deep
Purity within, dwelling innocence of life
Never gone, never dead, silent song of light
Walking through your memories snowhite
Leaving every bitter tear behind
I walk through a dreamer’s mind

Silent night around my chest
Hissing and wishing my lust
Catching my breath, drunken poison
Slowly swallowing bloodred wine of dawn
I’m sinking in your glance so bright
Eyes of a wolf, eyes of dark midnight

Why do I feel for you
Forever more?
Why do I want you
Like never before?

Follow me into the dark
Play ancient melodies of time
Enter deep my once hoping heart
Paint my dreamworld’s grey sky

Why do I feel for you
Forever more?
Why do I want you
Like never before?
Falling asleep I drown in your eyes deep
Purity within, dwelling innocence of life
Never gone, never dead, silent song of light
Walking through your memories snowhite
Leaving every bitter tear behind
I walk through a dreamer’s mind