Through long gone years
Beyond the rim of real
I’m always here
For you to be near

I was with you when none could be
Guarding your sleep
Taking all nightmares away
I was there for you, by your side
Guiding you to the light
Believing one day
You will remember me

Paths went too far
Writing both souls apart
Just once to make them entwine
Yours and mine

One call to rewrite the destiny
Or it’s but another coil of fate
The one to trust and believe
I was loyal and naïve to face
The real was never what it seemed

One night changed it all
I was there for you but for what?
To feel how blood turns ice cold
Betrayal in this sick smile
And years of trust turn into fake masquerade
Veiled still rotten grace upon rusting façade
I called your name
But there was only pain

Long months now passed
And you are kneeling silently weeping
I see now your heart
And want to believe it’s real
I want to believe you’re now alright

I want to believe that you are now real
That there is no game and it’s just like once
When there were only two of us
In our own world just you and me

All this time I thought
You are gone by my fault
Nightmares alive haunt me day and night

Long months I’ve tried to forget
Dear face painted with red
Fear in eyes, I thought you died

Darkness through memories
I’m awake yet asleep
No thoughts, no hopes for return, I’m going deep
Sinking in endless sea
Where is no pain, no cold
Inside left no world
Ever blaming me for that shot

I open my eyes to see in the dark
Silver moonlight flows through the bars
Sudden flash of light
And ever missed eyes
You… you are alive

Is this a dream?
Am I asleep?
Please, tell me it’s real
Forgive me, I beg
Forgive me, my friend

Fear and rage, pain and guilt
Like fire meets ice
Melting down I beg to forgive
This suffering tore me apart
For the whole world I’ve lost
Forgive me for I’ve done the worst
There is no return, still forgive me

Dark silhouette in the crowd
With glance of ice and fire
Like a king of old but without a crown
Yet you don’t need the one

Sinking in my desire
I’m suffocating in waves
Of lonesome days
Giving the past overcome
Overflow in its glow

It’s rising in silver gloom
In the shadow
Promises and oaths
Now wither within
The world is falling
Desire dwells deep
And I’m dying without you

Without sympathy
Agony crushes upon the heart in bleed
Mercilessly midnight makes me choke
Deep in core with another stroke
Of memories blind

A wish within your eyes
Hunger devouring you for ages
One truth among old lies
I’m locked inside
You are mine
Desire within your heart
Flames so hot upon faded pages
Upon still veiled side
You’re my golden cage
And I’m still blind
Craving for you through the time

Follow my path to find me
In passion and desire as I’ve ever used to be

I’ve been here before
Ever longing for a memory locked beyond
Where the real was forever far
By the hidden door

The clock strikes twelve in the end
Somewhere where the shore is still veiled
Where dawn sets down beyond
With a silent sigh of midnight world

Tell me if I should give up moving on
If there is no path for us both

Would you still go along
If there is no hope?
How do we live?
Are we still free
If every time we risk to lose it all?
Is there any hope
Once to forget old pain
Bleeding within with carved deep name?
Is there a hope to forgive the past locked behind the door
For one all new dawn?

Tell me how to live
If the storm in my soul grows more
Leaving no salvation for me
After awakening the world start to fall

If there is no way should I let it go
All I’ve ever longed for
My silent dawn blooms beyond
Leaving for me withering hope

Tell me if I should give up moving on
If there is no path for us both

Would you still go along
If there is no hope?
How do we live?
Are we still free
If every time we risk to lose it all?
Is there any hope
Once to forget old pain
Bleeding within with carved deep name?
Is there a hope to forgive the past locked behind the door
For one all new dawn?

Shadows coil around
Purifying the sound
You hear the song of nothingness
And there is no escape, no resistance

This force is stronger than your will
Captivating all of you real

For forgiveness
We are on our kneels
Praying for sacred dreams
No resistance
As we fall beyond the coiling dark
Into the shadows again to see the light
Against the whole world
We stand alone

Silent dawn rises
Eyes are still blind after velvet night
Awakening we fall back into tight embrace
Of nothingness without resistance

Break the wall of ice between us
Don’t you see how far we are?
Lost among blinking stars

For forgiveness
We are on our kneels
Praying for sacred dreams
No resistance
As we fall beyond the coiling dark
Into the shadows again to see the light
Against the whole world
We stand alone

For forgiveness we live
Without any fault
Blamed by our own
We walk in shame for our will
Should that be so?

Against the whole world we stand
Against the darkness and fake fame
For purity’s and truth’s name
For innocence
We stand as the only resistance

You see the fall
Before your eyes the world is gone
And the call sounds no more

The pain goes through years
Getting blurry
Turning into memories
Losing all the glory
The dreams are turned loose
Into the withering blue

Hear my call through time
Look once at me
I’m right behind
Where I used to be

Lonesome shore
Faded scenery
We burn to the core
For a memory
Withering
Suffocating
To feel, to breathe in
Once again to be real

Memory falls with faded cascade
Upon days ever forgotten in dust
The moment is a beating pulse
Look in my eyes while it’s not too late

Write the present above the past
I’m always here for you, walking in stardust
Counting all the falling stars

“Ever in hope I wait for you beyond the lonely shore.
Just know you’ll come. Once. You come, my love.”

Daydream embrace
Falling stars
Fading sense
You see through the glass
This withering memory
Long gone past

Believing and falling over and over I see
Forever gone memory torn apart in a fading scene

Faded faces, blurry eyes
Broken tear reflects in the mirror
Like the sky in clear silver
All the words
All the thoughts
Fade away with empty hope

You look at me
Lonely broken soul
Breathing life in
You sing me whole
Healing me you write me complete

We fly above , circling in white waltz
Over the withering grace
On the rim of golden sundown we sing the dawn
Dancing in soothing waves

I wished to touch your unlocked heart
To follow your dreams through the looking glass
I wished to dream through your mind
Ever shining in your deep midnight eyes

Look at me
As I stand before you naked with bare soul
Like a memory
A withering song without mystery

For a heart deep chord I long
For your flaming desire I erase the dawn
Without you I’m lost

Breathe life into every hoping heart
Like once long ago
I sang of beauty and love
Pull these broken strings of my soul
Heal me, make me whole
Before the chord falls silent in the core

Heal me as I long for love forever more
Ever used to once before
Make me whole

Don’t blame me for long passed sins
Don’t tear my heart for all lost dreams
You know I love
I gave an oath
To be loyal and honest until the ages are gone
Tell me you trust
Tell me you love
You’re the reason I move on

I gave up the past for our present to live
As there is no other scene
To revive it along
So I locked the door
Leaving it all beyond the point of no return

Feel the truth in me
If you don’t I’m left to bleed
For another truth
Forever lost in you

Sense my scars and make my heart beat
For eternity we used breathe in
Forever we dance in sundown gold
Circling around upon the world
Loving so desperately
For dearest memory
Along we love and live
To be again complete
Through the pale red dawn
Our love lives forevermore

I come to the locked door
Over and over
I’ve tried to look through to see the core
But never could reach closer
All the nights are buried in a weep for the past
Is this the point that should never more last?

I come over again to the doorstep
Tired and lonesome
Where I’m never needed, never awaited

Hours turn into days
Pouring down with cold autumn rain
Golden moments ever covered with ashes
Now dwell on the blank page

Over and over again
I come to the shore where stars shone bright once
Where we were together
Heart was filled with joy
Eyes sparkled with another coil
With another glow of starlight

The road goes down
And there is no other way out
What is left here for us now?

How have we come to this?
How do we live?
If there is no path for us both to be
To breathe as one
How should we go on?

Without you I’m falling
Wingless and broken
Alone I’m suffocating
Giving up it all
Against the whole world
Only for you I live and breathe
Forever yours to be

Crawling in the shadow
For a heart cold and hollow
I give it all to see once more
Without you I’m lonesome
For you I risk it all
Giving up the whole world
I sing through the years
To forget all the fears

You hold my hand I sink in perishing waves
Of lost golden days once more
I see through your eyes all the ages
Forgetting forever it all

Breathing in pale memories lost
I walk into pale oblivion
Alone in the dark
Through the thoughts I strike
Writing my path with a poor rhyme
Upon the edge of forsaken world

Lying bleeding
I’m suffocating
Without you there is only the last fall for me
Where is the end of pain?
Why should it remain?
How do I live?
Why do I breathe?
What am I fighting for
If one last door is closed?

Without you I’m not living
Only bleeding for another dawn
For the past to cascade with poison within

Breathing memories fall with a shattering sound
Hardly escaping away from the venomous bound
Night’s suffocating for another morning to call
As nightmares coil around me with cold

I walk ahead alone
Covered with ashes and blood
Everything I ever prayed for
To be sincerely loved
Breaks through the aching core

Lingering here, lost for all
I still believe and hope
For another heartbeat
For silent dream to live
To breathe your scent in

The world remains in shadows
Where the dawn is dead
Final call of memory is swallowed
And I take a step ahead
Now I’m not afraid

Lying bleeding
I’m suffocating
Without you there is only the last fall for me
Where is the end of pain?
Why should it remain?
How do I live?
Why do I breathe?
What am I fighting for
If one last door is closed?

Why do I live this pain
Over and over again?
Heal me, ease this suffering
Make me whole once more
I want to feel love
Without you my life is but a dark oblivion

For you I fall to breathe free
Breaking the ice of the past to be me
For a smile on your lips
I spread now my wings
For you I write path by path all over the earth
Painting another star’s birth

Because of the smile upon your lips I fall
Longing for forever more