Once dear memory fails
If we chase them for years
In the end mind prevails
Upon that bleeding heart

I run away to seek
The one and only way
To drift so far away
Lying about a dream

Can’t you see
None cares about that “real me”
Can’t you see
There is so much loneliness within
Longing for truth we lose us
For every beat of hope in heart

I close my eyes to feel deeper and more
Than I could sense ever before
For long lonesome years I’ve been trying hard
To forget all I want deep in my mind

My everything longs for every hopeful moment
I wish I could share with my special one
The past, every secret deeply hidden
Before life is forever gone

Can’t you see
I’m here standing with a heart full of hope
Can’t you feel
My longing for every untold moment of love
All the verses I wrote now and then
Shall be an oath or farewell

One last farewell to the world
I whisper and fly away
With northern winds of hope
I close my eyes and fade

If only I can see
If only I can feel
What is a dream
And what is real…

I’m walking through illusions I drew once
Like a hoping loser I try and knock at locked doors
Trusting still that nothing is impossible
I wish I could catch the one true feel

If only they could see
The real me
I wouldn’t be here
Just a lonely believer

I’m running through the times of misery
I try to escape from myself and seek the remedy
Painting all inner darkness from my heart
To cry out every hopeless part

Forgive my lonely self
For everything
For a hope and belief
That this could be real

I’ve tried so hard
To become the one
That I’ve lost my true self
In all this perfect hell

If only I caught that one
Written with destiny’s hand
One only true love
If only there were no dead end

Like the lightning stroke
I feel it trembling within
This power, like endless shock
Devouring me with all I need

Hold me, keep me near
So I won’t ever disappear
With every withered tear

I dream every night of moving closer
Seeking home every dream before I awaken
And feel completely broken

Like losing faith in a whirl of life
Every day is but another chance
I long for every spark of light
To touch that lost heart once

Dwelling in solemn misery
I feel like withering
Everywhere I go I play the same old song
Facing my own soul is reborn

Completely faded from the past
Every day now turned to dust
They won’t ever see darkness of their hearts

Through their millions of faces
I cannot escape and find any traces
I cry and run, run and cry
Trying to understand why

Can’t you see I’m falling down
Without any why and how
Lost within this fleeting time
I long for one only night

I’ve lost myself, can’t you see?
My dream dwells far away from me
I caress it dear so deep within

Touch the strings tenderly
To make my soul complete
With chords and deepest feeling

Please, play for me
Let me lose myself within those words
Paths of lines guiding me
Through all these written worlds
Just play again for me

Play your song silently
Make me complete with your misery
Like that pale reflection of me

Make me feel completely lost
Within your soul
Longing so hopelessly
For every dream by any cost
With all my core
So desperately, endlessly

Make me go to sleep
Play your lullaby to me
To make me once again complete

Please, play for me
Every chord through the night
Like the only dear memory
Like there is no fucking time
Play again so I can see
What’s hidden in the depth of your heart

Play for me
Make me feel
No matter if hurts
I want to be completely yours

I miss you every day
Though you’re far away
And all the things go stranger

I’m lost in time and know
That everything isn’t still gone
I’m coming home

Tell me there is a way
To find that path
Leading me back
To the very start
Where nothing is lost
And dreams aren’t faded

Tell me there is a way
To reach out from the dark
Just lead me ahead
With your inner light
You do not believe in
But I feel it within

I’m lost in my mind
But hope for one time
To find my way through this life

Through the point of no return
I give up my past and burn
In the fire of your heart and soul

I see your scars
I sense your heart
And through your eyes
I feel that darkest art
Of memories and agony

I feel the power of your wings
And unbending will
I feel your heart dreaming within
Of love, but hiding it deep

I see the scars all over your soul
We both have wounds deeper than hope
I see in your eyes an untold world
The pain and unshed tears long gone
Though you are never really alone
Remember that dear melody

I dream of the same shores and sky
You are walking now
I see it all every night
Touching this dream in my heart
Never broken though still scarred

We are all traumatized, but never lost
Longing still for our highest hopes
Believing in dreams and living for another dawn
To move along and carry on

In the night I hear a cry
Silent and weeping
Like an abandoned child
Lost and needing

I run and run across the field of memories
To catch a falling star above the broken pieces
All that left of the burnt past

Through the deepest slumber
I feel something within
Like a call of forever
Untold hidden feeling

I run and run across the field of memories
To see a shooting star falling into the sea
Like a dream embracing me tenderly

I run and run
Through the dark
To touch dear heart
I run and run
Flowing with sunlight
To caress with warmth
The whole world
That I’ve embraced within

Call me, call me
There left no dreams
Only blooming and withering real
Day by day we hide within
Untold tale of all the past sins

Tell me your story
With a sigh, with a cry
Through the transitory
Of all the past tries

I wish I could be special to you
I wish you could be special to me
It’s sad but true
Though how I’ll find you in this human sea

Never seen, never met
But still cannot forget
This feeling of longing
Like the edge of dreaming

Where our ways go
Where our road runs
I don’t know
I don’t know
I don’t know
What will remain of us

Can I be the one for you?
Can you be the one for me?
Sweet call of youth
I hear every night through the dream

Born in heaven, raised in hell
We walk across the world
Seeking, bidding farewell
To every dream and hope

I don’t know you
You don’t know me
There is nothing new
Just the same old story

Will we meet and how?
Will we find the way to each other’s hearts?
Living here and now
I still believe that someone wishes deep inside
To find the way to me
Forever to be

Deep inside every feeling is dead
Like an untold prayer
I saved a little hope to understand
Are you my hangman or saviour?

Can you see it in my heart
My soul is breaking apart?
Without faith
Without a way
I’m losing control, myself
Can’t you see I’ve been dead inside
Right from the start

I’m losing my mind
Trying to find the truth in all the words
They’ve told me one time
Leaving me bleeding with open wounds

Last symphony slowly dies
In blurry eyes
I’m trying to consume
Every memory of dead youth

Do you see I’m so high because of you
And all these questions running through my mind
I’m trying so hard to find the truth
In every word, every sight, every smile

Falling into the dark embrace of my misery
I’m losing myself one last time to see
That seductive smile of yours
So beautifully it hurts

Hey, listen
You are just the same
Bad and evil
Let’s play the game

Through the pain
We fall into pure bliss
Painting the same
Again and again
We dwell in sins
Echoing and singing
Longing for believing

Hey, listen
You are just like me
A dark sinner
Try me and you’ll see

It’s all just a real dream
We’re walking in
Tasting each other deep
With every painful weep

In every sip of pleasure
We drown deeper
Seeking the way to escape from pressure
Hoping like a dreamer

Through the pain
We fall into pure bliss
Painting the same
Again and again
We dwell in sins
Echoing and singing
Longing for believing

Hey, listen
We are the same
Still hoping
To play the real again