Sundown

On the other side of the river
In pale smile of dawn
I’ll sit waiting forever
For another dream dawn

In cold dew, in silver moonlight
I will walk with memories in heart
In dreams and awake
I will wait near the lake

Under old oak in ghostly moonshade
I’ll bear all for what I once prayed
In the horizon, in the end of a dying day
I’ll keep a hope, deep believing so far away

In the end of the river
In a silent pale dawn
I’ll dream forever
For this beautiful morn

In the end of the day before a kiss of the night
In the dying sundown
I’ll keep this moment deep in my heart
Because this moment is now

In That Cold Northern Dew

Await me in the end of the rainbow
Call me with a snowflake on dawn
In the horizon I’m waiting for you
In that cold morning blue

Grass in dew, frozen blue
Sky above the pale lake
Silent flight of a snowflake
Last ride of the day, endless journey
Touch of you, kiss of truth

Await me in the end of the day
Sing me a lullaby
Don’t leave me alone so far away
Remember a dreamy-eyed child
Who lost her own way

Flow with the river deep and cold
Follow dreamheart’s road
Through the grey dead world

Await me in the end of the rainbow
Awake me with a kiss of dawn
In the horizon I’m waiting for you
In that cold northern dew

Music Box In The Dark

While melody is flowing
I’m slowly falling
While music box is playing
I’m silently hiding
Deep in cold November night

No, no, don’t let me go
Oh no, never let me fall
Lust of the world
Dreams untold
Let me hear your call

No, no, don’t let me go
Not this morn
Not on dawn
Never let me go

For the beauty unseen
For the kiss of belief
For the one silent step
For the world without an end
For this magic Wonderland

Don’t let me fall
No, no, don’t go
Never leave me in cold
’cause there could be no dawn
For my every world

No, no, don’t let me go
Oh no, never let me fall
Lust of the world
Dreams untold
Let me hear your call

While music box in the dark
Is silently playing
While heart deep inside
Is secretly praying
There will always be a light of hope
For a sweet kiss of love

Part 11. There is only one way to find it out

“Don’t decide what my tomorrow should look like. I want to live in a dream and breathe a fantasy sometimes. Just let me live this way, I need it now. “

Kaija was lying in bed thinking about his words. He was worrying about her, she knew that. 
But she didn’t understand why she had to live ‘her own life’ if it’s so pale and grey. 

‘I feel lost and unhappy without brightness of magic. I need wonders in my life, Teller. I want this how hard it was. 
I want this life, life with storytime and ghost rivers, life with dreamers and wishes of heart, life in this Wonderland. And I finally want to decide my own way how to live.’

He didn’t answer, but he heard her.

She looked at the window. It was open. Heavy clouds let sun shine for a while. Birds were singing, fallen leaves shared their gold.
Beautiful November day.
Cold wind blew in her face and she breathed in some fresh air.

— So… Can I fly or not? — asked she in whisper and climbed the windowsill. — There is only one way to find it out… — sighed she taking a step.


… — Can we fly, Teller? — asked that little girl sitting in an armchair near the fireplace. 
— Who knows. There is only one way to find it out. — smiled he. — Maybe one day I’ll show you.

She sat silently and looked at him. ‘He is more like Dreamer, not Teller… Why he should be Teller…’
‘Because there is Dreamer already. You don’t know him.’ 
They read eachother’s thoughts for a little while when she felt very tired and fell asleep…


“Remember me like a sweet memory
Hold it dear as I’m gone
Remember the eyes looking so deep
Through the crowd 
To find the answer I took a step down

Bear this memory, hold it dear
I’m always near
Closer than you think
Bear this memory, sing it dear
My snowball cage is open now
As I’m gone…”

— I can hear your voice even in 1250 miles… don’t try to fool me. — said she. — Teller.. where are you? 
But he didn’t answer. He was hiding and she had to find him. 
— I simply can’t see you… 
— You don’t have to. Just feel. — heard she right behind. She turned around but there was none. 

… Memories passed by her eyes while she was flying. 

Snowball Locker

Untouched, unloved

Locked in a snowball 
Living, breathing, slowly dying
Broken heart for a frozen kiss
I’m coming to you, Princess
With first snow I always fall on the town
Whispering silently to the dark lustful night
Running, falling slowly down
Haunt your victim
Take her heart
Catch her breath
Tame her
Blame her
Drink her dream
Break her
Take her
Kill all her feel
Make me believe in another tomorrow
Bury my heart’s deepest sorrow
Play your music box every night for me
Please, make me believe, let me dream
Snowball, my dear home
Sky made of glass
Winter from childish past
Paths leading to wet morning-dew grass
Silent song to awake me
Kiss of dawn to dream
Fly for a little while 
Touch the sky
While you still have your kindest heart
Redeem me into childhood
Show me the world without glass shell
Running across the field of dew
Far from this locked Hell

Part 10. The Woods

… Pale morning greeted her with heavy raindrops knocking at her window. Cold autumn window blew through the open window and her diary that was lying on the windowsill whispered with its dry pages.
It was done. And now its pages were blank again (it always happens to it when it’s full).

Kaija sat in her bed and looked in the window with still sleepy eyes. She didn’t remember what happened yesterday. She felt that her hands were covered with something. Skin was too dry.
She looked down at her hands and saw that they were dark red. She licked her finger and felt that familiar taste, salty and bittersweet seductive poison.

‘Blood… Teller.’ — thought she in her sweet agony. Memory slowly came back to her.
That night she saw him for the first time. The only one who could protect her from the darkest shadows, deepest fears of her. Teller saved her then in that forest…

… — Are you alright? Didn’t hurt? – asked he calmly helping her to get up.
— Y-yes. – answered she weeping. She was so much afraid that she could hardly talk.
— Where do you live? I could bring you home. – said he looking in her eyes.
— I.. don’t remember. I’m lost. – murmured she looking at the snow.

He thought for a while and sighed. She noticed that he felt something strange.
— Let’s go. I’ll bring you home.

He brought her to his house. It was a small house near the lake surrounded by the woods. He closed the door and placed her near the fireplace.
She was silently sleeping in the arm-chair then.

— Kaija… — whispered he. — My dear Kaija. Next morn you will forget everything.
— What did you say? — asked she sleepily. — I don’t want to forget it all, Storyteller.
— Storyteller? How do you know? — asked he in his greatest surprise.
— I saw it… You’re Storyteller, right?
— Yes, Kaija. — answered he looking at her.
— You also know who I am! — smiled she and fell asleep again.

He looked at her. Such a little girl in so dangerous place. So strange…
— Sleep well, Kaija. — whispered he to her and kissed her forehead.

— You saved me that night. From that darkest evil… and now… where are you?

She didn’t expect for an answer. She just talked to herself in her empty room.
Kaija closed her eyes and saw him. He was sitting right before her. He put his head on her kneels and embraced her legs.

— I thought it would be better if… you’ll forget it all and live your life. Without magic and wonders. Your human life.
— I’m so tired of that everyone decides what is better for me.. I know what is better and what I need. I know. And I know that I want this if it meant to be so then I have to live with this. I need you by my side, Teller.

He touched her hand and she opened her eyes. He was sitting near holding her hand and looked deep in her eyes.

— Are you sure that you want this? It’s harder than you could ever imagine. It’s Hell. Pure Hell… I.. — said he looking down.
— I want this, Teller. It’s my life and I know what I’m doing. Yes.. I want this. Just never let me fall. Stay here. — whispered she into his ear. Then she softly kissed him and looked at him. She took his hand and put it on her heart. — It’s beating for you.

Part 9. Tiny shadow in the doorway of memory

Sea wind took her silent song to the other lands. Like the siren she charmed him and walked to the lighthouse.

Burning candle on the writing table was slowly dying. Soon only a tiny ghost remained.
She was sitting at the table and thinking about her tales when he came in. Kaija looked at the fallen leaves, waves in the sea and dark rocks. She turned back to him and saw that he was looking at her.

– What? – asked she with a surprised look.
– Nothing. – replied he with one move of his brows and stepped closer.
Teller embraced her and breathed in the scent of her hair. He stood and held her tight in his arms.

– Kaija… why? Tell me, why we are here?
– I knew you would love this island. It’s so peaceful here… – said she embracing him. She felt so warm in his embrace. – Besides.. don’t you like being here?
– I do. Is it a game to you? Dark passion play? – asked he slowly taking off her shirt she was wearing on her white dress.
– No. Because I never play loving games though. – replied she in whisper.

Memories of the night… that night when it all began.

“I found you in the forest. You were all alone. Cold and lonely… So I took you here, to my place. You were just a child.. Kaija, don’t make me sad. Don’t do any harm to yourself. You mean a lot to me.”

… Snow. White and cold. It covered the path she came here. She stood alone in the dark night, but she wasn’t lost. She loved to take night walks when she heard that song. Silent melody of silver moon was calling her that night too.
It sounded like a violin and sometimes like a music box. Silver tune was deep and beautiful, but sad although.
It lived within her tiny heart and she followed it.

– Kaija… Kaija.. Come, Kaija..come…

She heard the whisper calling her name. She followed that calling and as she was coming closer it turned louder and louder.

– No.. I don’t want… Blood! Snow is red… – sighed she through the sleep.
– Shh, shh.. you’ll forget it soon. Or remember the whole story. It now depends on you, my sweet Kaija. – whispered Teller holding her in his arms. – Only you. Only yours…

– I’m afraid… blood. Don’t hurt me.. Please, don’t.. Help! – cried she through her scare sleep.
– So you decided to remember it all. That’s good for you, my dear. – said Teller holding her tight by his heart.

She ran through the forest. She was tired and felt that she couldn’t run anymore. Kaija fell in soft snow.
Dark shadows surrounded her. She closed her eyes in fear…

To Unknown

The lonely man in the lost kingdom
The king of his life but the slave for freedom
He is but all alone through the years so long
Through the madness of this cold world

He thought it was foretold
His loneliness, endless lovelorn
Dreamer’s heart, poet’s part
Chapter one for a diary of the Dark
Lost tear hidden by the hearth

Along this shore
He walked to greet the dawn
Among sharp thorns
He played the same old song

Old song for love
Of long lost years
For cold youth tears
Old song of dawn

He cried on that white lonely shore
Sharing his deep dreams with the waves
Leaving dearest wishes behind the door
Hiding them deep in night shades

He thought it was foretold
His loneliness, endless lovelorn
Dreamer’s heart, poet’s part
Chapter one for a diary of the Dark
Lost tear hidden by the hearth

“The letter to Unknown.

You don’t know me
As I don’t know you
So I can trust you, dear reader.
I’m long long gone if you’re reading this…
There is a letter for you and my old diary,
Keep it, please, for a memory.
Of me.. while I come back one day.

Faithfully yours,
Nobody.”

He kept the diary of rhymes
He saved the dreams untold
For the one whoever tried
To bring a smile and a tear to this world

Part 8. Dreamer

‘I know it’s wrong… but she is so close. Her scent is too seductive to be true. Fate couldn’t give me such a great gift.’

– It could. You should drink if you want… I don’t mind. – whispered she bending to him.
He could feel the warmth of her body, sweet scent of her skin. He took her and put on the bed.

– Teller… – sighed she looking in his eyes.
– What? – asked he trying so hard to keep calm.
– Just never let me go.
– Never… – whispered he into her ear and kissed her neck.
This time it wasn’t so hurt. She was lying on the bed under him feeling how his tears were falling on her cheek and neck.
He drank not so much fearing to take all her blood.
Teller licked the wound on Kaija’s neck and it was gone. He looked at her with his wild eyes trying to see the shade of disgust in her eyes. But she was smiling at him.
Kaija touched his face softly and kissed his lips covered with blood.

… Castle. Dark tower of lighthouse was now only a shadow behind their backs.
Endless field was spreading to the horizon there. Pale sky was covered with grey clouds, but it didn’t seem like the rain.
Suddenly she heard the sound of waves. Enormous sea. Harsh and tameless.

Fresh air… Silent wind was playing in her hair, she closed her eyes and sat on the sand. Teller sat near.

– The sea… – sighed she. – Have you been here? – asked she with still closed eyes.
– Yes.. but it wasn’t the same. All the time I missed something. Something really important… some part of my soul. Trying to find it everywhere in this endless world I went to many lands.. but it’s still the same.
Now I feel complete. For those long long years.

She was silent. And suddenly she started to sing.

‘The lonely man in the lost kingdom
The king of his life but the slave for freedom
He is but all alone through the years so long
Through the madness of this cold world

He thought it was foretold
His loneliness, endless lovelorn
Dreamer’s heart, poet’s part
Chapter one for a diary of the Dark
Lost tear hidden by the hearth’

Pale red sun smiled at them through the clouds sending them its last goodbye for this dying day…

I Wish You Were Here

Through the storm in my soul
I cannot see anything
Across the field of childish dreams
I wish I could go there again

Every path deep in my mind
Every tiny part of memory
Takes me to that night

I wish you were here now
Through the storm in my soul
I wish you were here, love
Through the pain of weeping piano
For the tiny steps on the snow
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Tonight…

Every day is like the darkest cave
Curse, ghost of pale dream
My worst nightmare from which I cannot escape

I wish you were here now
Through the storm in my soul
I wish you were here, love
Through the pain of weeping piano
For the tiny steps on the snow
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Tonight…

I couldn’t breathe
Bearing sweet pain
I couldn’t leave
Trembling in a dearest dream
Wishing so bad you were here

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