I loved you once and thought it was forever
But you told me that to live real life would be better
I missed, I cried, but then surrendered
You swore once to love me forever
You told those words but never kept them
I lived those days and still remember
I don’t want to suffer more again
There was enough for me
The guilt and tears, all this pain
I’ve had enough and want to leave
‘Cause now I surrender
My heart still aches, but life goes on
I have my dreams, my goals
I want to live my life without guilt and pain
All your wishes I hope you’ll gain
Sincerely
It’s hard to be with someone when they are down
It’s hard to understand their heart
All you need is to give them love
Give your support, give your word
Don’t leave me alone
Please, let me feel you’re near
Let me know that I’m dear
I will give it all
To let you know
That you are not alone
I’ll turn around the world
To show you I’m sincere with you
I will give my everything
To show what you mean to me
Just let me be your friend
Close your eyes and take my hand
I will give it all
To let you know
That you are not alone
I’ll turn around the world
To show you I’m not lying
So hard I’m trying
To show the real me
So you can see
Please, let me get closer to you
And be near in your time of need
To take away all that blue
I’ll paint bright all your dreams
I will give it all
To let you know
That you are not alone
I’ll turn around the world
To show you I’m sincere with you
My Wish
Silent wish upon the lips
Like an unread prayer
Like a never given kiss
An untold word can never be a saviour
Like hidden truth
All the words unsaid
Slowly burying you
Before you see the end
A silent wish is just sleeping within
Until the moment comes
Until you feel that it’s time
It will rest deep in under your dearest dream
My wish lies deep
Though not unseen
The one who wants to know
Will look inside
The one who will follow
Will find
The answer, the truth, the heart
Sweet Dream
Kind smile, warm embrace
Silent words sound like pure bliss
So calm and sweet, just endless grace
Last night’s dream made me feel peace
Your velvet voice, like silent prayer
Words sweet and kind removed despair
And dark shiny eyes looked deep in soul
Making all my fears forever gone
Your hold so tight and silent words
That made my heart believe it all
You told me silently with a smile
That everything is gonna be fine
It was a dream though so deep and true
I wish I could embrace you real and say “I love you”
Perfect Fault
Tell me why
I’m always wrong in everything
Tell me why
It’s always about me
Like you’ve never done anything wrong
Like it’s always just my fault
In the end I’m always alone
Silently crying in the dark
Hoping to put together my broken heart
I’m done, I’m so fucking done
Be right, if you wish it so bad
But remember one thing
Your triumph one day will end
Then you realize bitterly
It never was worth it all
Because there left no warmth
It will be too late to turn back
If you really want this to end
Making me cry over and over
Without any shelter or poor cover
One day when you need me
There will be none waiting for you
Remember it like a fading dream
Everytime in your deepest blue
Nothing can be like it was before
Pain so deep could never be healed
Loving you was too hard for me to keep
But you ruined it perfectly some time ago
Another word turned ice cold
Making a perfect fault
Like a dream I wish I could never see
Be My Friend
Be my friend
I don’t dare ask for more
Be my support
My guide
And I will be yours till the end
Your support, your friend
The one who will listen to you
Who will be near even being so far
Who will dry the years you shed
In your bright hours and in deepest blue
I will be there for you
No matter how far we are
Be my friend
I will yours
To laugh together when it hurts
Be my friend
When we need to talk the most
Be my friend
I don’t ask for more
Dry now the tears I shed
And I will paint the whole world
For you, my dear friend
Emptiness and Loneliness
Cold and emptiness
Deep loneliness
Living within me so deep inside
Paralyzing only more with time
In moonlight I feel lonely and forlorn
Like years and years ago
Silently singing through the night
All the hopes I keep in my heart
Starlit choirs echo in this silence
Moonlight flows through an open window
Making me wonder if all the hopes
I bear within for so long
Would ever become true
Would I ever see you
Days pass by like sands of time
I hope still deep inside
That my dream will turn real
No more loneliness within
Nine Years
Nine years of empty promises
Turned at once into nine years of broken memories
Ashes of words and songs
Covered the altar of lonesomeness
Broken promises and dusty web of lies
Empty oaths and shattered nights of desperate cries
I will heal and rise again
Gather all the broken pieces in one
I will rise and fly again
To see the world and meet my love
So pure, so naive thoughts
But the only thing I have is this hope
You see the shadow of me
I see the light beneath
You broke a memory
I used to believe in
You torn apart my heart and soul
Like one did so long ago
But believe me it won’t happen once more
Something More
I wish to leave a mark in someone’s story
If not in the whole history
To become a dear memory
A wish upon the star
A dream in someone’s heart
A verse written on faded paper
A word that will never wither
I wish to become something more
A beautiful scenery in someone’s mind
I wish to be a calm white shore
For a lost traveller through time
Through my words, through the lines
I wish to become something more than just pages and ink
Through my verses and rhymes
I wish to be the only love and dear memory
Dreams
Dreams cannot hurt, cannot betray
They don’t disappear just suddenly
Dreams can heal from the deepest pain
Much better than the sweetest memory
Words hide unshed tears
Verses erase the scars
Left by the hand so dear
Again and again on hoping heart
Betrayal can be healed by someone’s caring words
Kind and deep, full of faith and warmth
I try to believe and keep one only dream deep within
Letting it guide me ahead
I believe our wishes can come real
And I will hope till the end
Linlin's Poetry 