30.03.2010

Will I see you once more?
Why do I spell this pain within?
But you shouldn’t believe in
These my words… as you maybe did before…

“Could I trust you?”
Tell me what could I do
If the pain lives in me
Pure love lies so deep

Old promises –
Now they are gone…
Secret deep sins –
They were for the only one…
Pure sense –
Does it matter, if now I’m alone?

Do you know
Why tears sparkle in my eyes?
If I should go
So tell me this, but no more lies…

Let me go
Or make me stay…
But don’t kill the hope
My heart will pray

Last night of my feeling
So catch the moment
For you I’d give my everything
Now there is only one second…
I’ll do all that you want
But the heart wishes to be loved
Give me this death, so slow and long
Make my soul be reborn
I need you
You know it’s true
Give me one more life
To live this one night
Night hides the lust
I love, but could I trust?
God, please, give me one more day
To make my own way
Adoring heart prays for
You and your soul
I’ll feel for you forevermore
Our time isn’t gone…

But…

28 March 2010

The moon, dark night
Your love, my heart
But why do you
Still ask me if I feel for you?

All secrets, all feelings we knew
Every word was forever true

Hiding still in the dark
Shining star is so bright
You know that’s my heart
Not a flame, but still light
Shines for you, but…

Bright sun, morning came
I would never betray
Every moment of that time
When you keep on asking why

All secrets, all feelings we knew
Every word was forever true

Hiding still in the dark
Shining star is so bright
You know that’s my heart
Not a flame, but still light
Shines for you, but…

You keep on asking why
Still knowing my answer
Let me bleed if I tell a lie
Before the dream is gone forever

Hiding still in the dark
Shining star is so bright
You know that’s my heart
Not a flame, but still light
Shines for you, but…

To love and to go…

29 March 2010

To love and go

To hate and stay

What is life for?

Just give me one more day…

Flying away from all lies

Lying on cold ice

My hope was still for you

My dream of you

(Forever you)

What do we live for?

What is the sense to give forever more

To be lost in time

In those cold moments of night

But warmth of the blood

That whisper so hot

Drink this red wine –

The blood of mine

Spend this last night

With me in the dark

Help me to hide

Give me one more path

The night of the lust

Last flash of the trust

All believing burning to dust

You’ve cut me deep

You’ve left my tears

The only heard my weep

My soul will bleed for years…

Lost prayer

15 April 2010

My heart was there one day

But once it had dying pain

Now it’s all gone

You think it was wrong

Sailing away, running away

With a light of the day

My path leads me to your hideaway

Fading in your memory

I’m sinking in that deep sea

My love, save me

The feelings will die in me

My dream, last fantasy

Sweet heaven lies in you

In the eyes of deep blue

Sailing away, running away

With a light of the day

My path leads me to your hideaway

Fading in your memory

I’m sinking in that deep sea

My dear, save me

Nothing ties me to this place

Only your sad face,

One pleading look made me stay

Please, take me away

Sailing away, running away

With a light of the day

My path leads to your hideaway

Fading in your memory

I’m sinking in that deep sea

Oh, please, save me

None could heal

My heart, your thrill

Will kill me from inside

Pure love will I once find?

You took me

That night new star was born

Your tear still dwell within

All was lost and forlorn

Forever I’ve prayed

For you, whom I still need

Don’t be afraid

Your heart will be healed

Sailing away, running away

With a light of the day

My path leads me to your hideaway

Fading in your memory

I’m sinking in that deep sea

Oh, dear, please, save me

Soul whispered: “It’s true”

The words once said

Long ago they flew

Desire is almost dead

Although, forever I knew

I had to wait..

My heart will long for you

Save all I once prayed

Please, save all I’ve prayed for

Pure love was born before

Your words will live forevermore

Sailing away, running away

With a light of the day

My path leads me to your hideaway

Fading in your memory

I’m sinking in that deep sea

Please, save me

Once having a hope

That was the beginning of my fall

Or maybe no

What did I gain?

Under the rain,

Taking care of deep pain

Oh no…Not again

Drink this cup with me,

Suffer no more

Bring the end, just kill

The pain of bleeding sore

Do this last will

You know how it is, you’ve had this before

Bearing this thrill

I left you that score…

The third one

25 May 2010

Prayer for being taken by the wind

But is that I really need?

Return me back in time

Show me my whole life

Holy soul, wild nature

You are my rapture

Why had I met you?

Deep inside

Lies the heart of the wild

It’s hidden within

With your deep dream

Forever dark creature

Will long for you

Because you are…

My deep fear, my eternal bliss

The angel gave only one kiss

That was enough to tame

My poor soul, my deepest shame

Holy soul, wild creature

You are forever my rapture

Oh God, why had I met you?

Why had I fallen in love with you?

Tell me why I’d felt the pain

Just dream me through

The sky, through the starlit sky again

Holy soul, wild creature

You are forever my rapture

Oh God, why had I met you?

Bitter truth

26 May 2010

The rabble thought

I had no feeling

Telling rude words

Where left no healing

Calling me a bitchy whore

Falling down, they told

I am a spoiled bore

But you still give me powers to hold

To hold on!

Never fading away

The hope deep in my mind

Reminds me of that day

When I got I was once blind

Calling me a bitchy whore

Falling down, they told

I am a spoiled bore

But you still give me powers to hold,

Just to hold on…

Forever a fool, never an angel

I, blind bitch living in her own world,

Devilish beast sitting in dark cage

Heart of stone could never hurt

Calling me a bitchy whore

Falling down they told

I am a spoiled bore

But you still give me powers to hold,

To live, to stand this all!

Forever I thought –

Farewell would hurt

But not now, not in this world

I am a bitchy whore

Like they once told

I am a spoiled bore

Give me more powers to hold,

To leave this all…

Give me more..

(I need forever more)

One kiss

8 June 2010

Hey sweetie, I’m waiting
Waiting for you
And you know what’s the feeling
So just do…

Oh, you know, darling
That I wanna be with you
I long not for dark lying
But for sweet kiss of you

[Chorus:]

My dream lies on you now
No way to go, oh
Just no way to run
My dream lies on you
Dark thoughts I knew
Now my dream lies on you

Take me now (I’m ready now)
Come closer (step by step)
Take me now (I still wanna you)
Love is now sweeter than that I’ve kept
Kiss me, I long for you

[Chorus:]

My dream lies on you now
No way to go, oh
Just no way to run
My dream lies on you
Dark thoughts I knew
Now my dream lies on you

Dark night, that time
I told that I love you
Oh, I wish that was a lie
But no, that’s holy true

[Chorus:]

My dream lies on you now
No way to go, oh
Just no way to run
My dream lies on you
Dark thoughts I knew
Now my dream lies on you

Take me now, I’m all yours
My heart still a bit hurts
Your love now burns

[Chorus:] x2

My dream lies on you now
No way to go, oh
Just no way to run
My dream lies on you
Dark thoughts I knew
Now my dream lies on you

Wonderland

11 June 2010

Silent wood, mysterious place
Whispering stars, call of those days
Take me to this land
Give me your hand

I want to come back!
Place, take me back…

Is this a dream or it’s real?
If it’s a fantasy why then
I have this deep wound to heal?
You are near till end

I want to come back!
Please, take me back

Awake me with a kiss, dream me here
Show me this unreal world
Of magic, memory of this realm is so dear
Let pass that was murdered

Take me there again
Bring me home, my dream

I want to turn back
Just dream me back

Fly to me and take to your land
Show me the magic kingdom once more
I want to turn back, give me a hand
Deep memory would never be gone
Of white snow, of blue lake, of hot sand
Make me turn back once more!

I want to turn back
Just give me a hand

The real of fairy-tales
Our mysterious place
Where all wishes come true
All dreams of me and you

Let’s fly to the land of freedom
To the place where day is night
It’s time to turn back to our kingdom
Where cold is hot and darkness is light
Dream me to the days of deepest wisdom
Spread wings and let your soul take the flight

I want to go back
To the Wonderland
Give me your hand

The realm of fairy-tales
Our mysterious place
Where all wishes come true
All dreams of me and you

Please stay

24 June 2010

Sound of guitar strings
Reminds me of old memory
Heart still believes
But it seems to be just a fantasy
Just heart still believes, still believes

River still flows taking the pain
Maybe that wasn’t so wrong
I’m a prisoner of desert praying for rain
Just a lonely bird singing this song
Still praying for rain, oh again

My nightmare faded away
But anguish had stayed
I hoped for one more day
I wished you’d stayed, just stayed
Give me one more, one day

Love it’s or not
But soul had hoped
That heart loved
Oh, I still love and want
I want to be loved

My nightmare faded away
But anguish had stayed
I hoped for one more day
I wished you’d stayed, just stayed
Give one more day, one day

Please, move this pain
Just take it away
I want just to say
“Dear, please, stay”

My nightmare faded away
But anguish had stayed
I hoped for one more day
I wished you’d stayed, just stayed
Give me one more day, just one day

Just stay with me, please, stay….