I wanna break free
From my dark mind play
Too tired for just being
Too tired to feel afraid

Let me go
I just wanna go home

Days of fading, we are the new beginning
Stay or fuck off
Join my delirious trip of daydreaming
Feel hatred or love
I am but playing and pretending
So just go

Selfish and naive
I always play this game
Ending up as a fool
Falling in love so true

Paralyzed and hypnotized
I feel and act like drunk
Test me, I am sober, yet so mesmerized
With the way how I’m done

This is the other end
When it’s all my heart to blame
For falling in love everytime I feel
It could be real

I’m so scared and cold
It’s like the end of the world
I’m but a coward to end it all
A little farewell and go

Too scared to go this way
Too selfish to fade away
Even if it’s damn hard
There is a lesson of karma

Though still I have these thoughts
They don’t leave me alone
I’m afraid and tired of this all
Wishing deep inside just to be gone

Don’t judge me
I cannot handle it
I’m lost and trembling in fear
Wishing so bad just to disappear

Afraid and lost
Lost and alone
In this damn cruel world
God, forgive my soul…

Like the deepest wound
I bleed in soul
And it seems there is no way out

It hurts like endless hell
Without any hope to let me rest
Help, please, I need help

I know this feel
I know it well, believe
Don’t tell me you understand
Don’t say that it’ll end
I know, but I’m losing myself now
Circling round and round
I just wanna to feel fine
I just wanna be alright

This bound is my everyday life
Pain and smile like everything is fine
Though it’s just a usual lie

I’m trapped
There is no end
I want to escape
But there is no exit
No path to lead me
No door to take me away
From this nightmare I see every day

Help me, I cannot escape from myself being me
Save me, I cannot get up dying so deep in

Forgive me for being me
I’m just a sinner, unholy dreamer
Forget me not, dear
You were the only one to understand
What lived deep in me

Another night falls silently
Like a heartbreaking melody
Of those words lying deep still

Untold, never written
Like purity of tears ever hidden

Moonlight spills with silver beams
Like a mirror of dreams
Silent waters of frozen stream

We talk, eat and live
Spinning our world around something dear
For love and purity within
We walk, seek and believe
One day changes everything
Just close your eyes and hear
The melody of your own feeling

The darkest hour will fade away
Like a memory of a long gone day
But the feel will still remain
Without anger, without pain

Feel your soul singing
Feel your heart dreaming
Of those lines unwritten yet
Of those eyes the heart longs for so bad

I’ve lost myself in this whirl of feelings
Longing for better times and secret dreams
Trembling to the core ’cause fear still remains

I know that nothing is known yet
All hopes are alive or already dead
Is this a new beginning or a dead end

I’m just trying my best
To live and to rest
Like tomorrow is gonna be the better place

Just tell me what I am
A paranoid, problem or dead end
I need salvation
Be my redemption
Heal my soul as I have no place to go
No place here to call home

Blind eyes, silent throats
They don’t tell me what I live for
Another day gives a hundred roads
And precious dream to live for

We seek that deep sense of living
But our life just flows by
Leaving no time for sincere dreaming
Like a dreamy-eyed child

Just tell me what I am
A paranoid, problem or dead end
I need salvation
Be my redemption
Heal my soul as I have no place to go
No place here to call home

Just tell me now what I am still
A psycho, dreamer or just a bad thing
Why am I the one to leave all by myself
Tell me, please, will I be safe

I know what I feel
I know, I know, I know
What lies deep
If not desire for love
Pure and real
I know, I know, I know

Dreams turn into nightmares
When I try to escape from myself
Hope turns to agony
When I face all my fears
Feeling endlessly lonely

And I know
There is none to save me
I should go
To feel more real
Than ever before
I know, I know, I know

Face my tears
Do you see the pain never truly hidden
Face your fears
I always could read as they all were written
Upon your eyes and soul
I know, I know, I know

I feel you everywhere
In a dream, in the air
In every rain drop
In every deep damn song
I feel you so close everytime
When I try to survive
My prayer and my curse
Could that be worse
To know it all
And still feel for
I know, I know, I know

Fuck the words I couldn’t say
There is another way
To tell it all through the rhymes
To feel so fucking true and alive
We always secretly hope
You know, you know, you know

I know the way we live, the way we die
Everyone takes their own path
The way we play it all from the heart
Even if nobody listens

We lose ourselves every night
Just to face another sunrise
Losing us for every part they call life
Even if nothing remains

I open myself the way I’ve never done yet
To see these sparks in the eyes I’ll never forget

Trust and devotion I’ve seen once
In the reflection of dear eyes
I just hope to see once more
Before days of youth are all gone
The hope within still lives

Those words I’ve written with my own blood
I say it all from the bottom of my heart
Bearing forever the dear dream of true love

So naive, so childishly naive
But still I believe
Our paths cross one day
So I could rest, I could stay

Where is the beauty of this world?
Where has every pure feel gone?
Is there a smile at the end of this road
Or these forsaken wishes lie now undone?

My memory drowns deep
In eternity’s sleep
Where none can rest
Upon a virgin’s breast

I see everything quivering within
Lost hope and burning desire
Where we let our hearts dream
With every tune played on the wire

Unlock the door to your soul
Let my demons play with yours
And we don’t have to go
As there is nothing left to hurt
We both will burn
Together in this neverending awe

I cry every night
Because it hurts
When they lie
Not in reverse

I cry within to see the truth
But the only truth is it’s because of you

Dawn cuddles into haze
And I feel like I can’t see through
Like walking in a maze
Lost in between fake and true

Even if it hurts so bad I don’t wanna forget
I am what I am and can get along with that

I wake up every morning
All trashed and lost like hell
But I try to sound ironic
So nobody could ever tell

My every deep confession
Drowns in the sea of pain
With all my secret passion
To feel loved once again

Dear diary
My heart bleeds
In pure agony
My soul is torn
Beyond the world
Where we all burn

I cannot feel anymore
Walking alone
Those dreams were a lie
We don’t see them before we die
Everyone lies but the one tells the truth
Even if it deeply hurts you

Fighting my demons
I feel powerless
All sensitive and lost
I walk regardless
Through this hell to see
The dawn so damn real

Broken and traumatized
Lying every morning like paralyzed
I don’t hear the voice of my mind
Wandering around like blind
I seek this inner peace
They call eternal bliss

Hypocrisy
Burnt memories
They’re feasting on death
Holding still their breath
As the wine isn’t that spicy
To kill off that putrid fetidity

I’m tired of this endless stress
Losing my temper and hair
Trying to rise out of bed and dress
Every morning I leave my lair
To head to work to look at all those faces
Just to know the world is falling apart these days

Dear diary
What a mess
What an irony
More or less
I’m going through
Just to keep the truth