Just tell me what I am
A paranoid, problem or dead end
I need salvation
Be my redemption
Heal my soul as I have no place to go
No place here to call home

Blind eyes, silent throats
They don’t tell me what I live for
Another day gives a hundred roads
And precious dream to live for

We seek that deep sense of living
But our life just flows by
Leaving no time for sincere dreaming
Like a dreamy-eyed child

Just tell me what I am
A paranoid, problem or dead end
I need salvation
Be my redemption
Heal my soul as I have no place to go
No place here to call home

Just tell me now what I am still
A psycho, dreamer or just a bad thing
Why am I the one to leave all by myself
Tell me, please, will I be safe

I know what I feel
I know, I know, I know
What lies deep
If not desire for love
Pure and real
I know, I know, I know

Dreams turn into nightmares
When I try to escape from myself
Hope turns to agony
When I face all my fears
Feeling endlessly lonely

And I know
There is none to save me
I should go
To feel more real
Than ever before
I know, I know, I know

Face my tears
Do you see the pain never truly hidden
Face your fears
I always could read as they all were written
Upon your eyes and soul
I know, I know, I know

I feel you everywhere
In a dream, in the air
In every rain drop
In every deep damn song
I feel you so close everytime
When I try to survive
My prayer and my curse
Could that be worse
To know it all
And still feel for
I know, I know, I know

Fuck the words I couldn’t say
There is another way
To tell it all through the rhymes
To feel so fucking true and alive
We always secretly hope
You know, you know, you know

I know the way we live, the way we die
Everyone takes their own path
The way we play it all from the heart
Even if nobody listens

We lose ourselves every night
Just to face another sunrise
Losing us for every part they call life
Even if nothing remains

I open myself the way I’ve never done yet
To see these sparks in the eyes I’ll never forget

Trust and devotion I’ve seen once
In the reflection of dear eyes
I just hope to see once more
Before days of youth are all gone
The hope within still lives

Those words I’ve written with my own blood
I say it all from the bottom of my heart
Bearing forever the dear dream of true love

So naive, so childishly naive
But still I believe
Our paths cross one day
So I could rest, I could stay

Where is the beauty of this world?
Where has every pure feel gone?
Is there a smile at the end of this road
Or these forsaken wishes lie now undone?

My memory drowns deep
In eternity’s sleep
Where none can rest
Upon a virgin’s breast

I see everything quivering within
Lost hope and burning desire
Where we let our hearts dream
With every tune played on the wire

Unlock the door to your soul
Let my demons play with yours
And we don’t have to go
As there is nothing left to hurt
We both will burn
Together in this neverending awe

I cry every night
Because it hurts
When they lie
Not in reverse

I cry within to see the truth
But the only truth is it’s because of you

Dawn cuddles into haze
And I feel like I can’t see through
Like walking in a maze
Lost in between fake and true

Even if it hurts so bad I don’t wanna forget
I am what I am and can get along with that

I wake up every morning
All trashed and lost like hell
But I try to sound ironic
So nobody could ever tell

My every deep confession
Drowns in the sea of pain
With all my secret passion
To feel loved once again

Dear diary
My heart bleeds
In pure agony
My soul is torn
Beyond the world
Where we all burn

I cannot feel anymore
Walking alone
Those dreams were a lie
We don’t see them before we die
Everyone lies but the one tells the truth
Even if it deeply hurts you

Fighting my demons
I feel powerless
All sensitive and lost
I walk regardless
Through this hell to see
The dawn so damn real

Broken and traumatized
Lying every morning like paralyzed
I don’t hear the voice of my mind
Wandering around like blind
I seek this inner peace
They call eternal bliss

Hypocrisy
Burnt memories
They’re feasting on death
Holding still their breath
As the wine isn’t that spicy
To kill off that putrid fetidity

I’m tired of this endless stress
Losing my temper and hair
Trying to rise out of bed and dress
Every morning I leave my lair
To head to work to look at all those faces
Just to know the world is falling apart these days

Dear diary
What a mess
What an irony
More or less
I’m going through
Just to keep the truth

I feel like an endless search
I long for an only touch
Please, let me feel
You’re not a dream

Just take my hand and hold me still
Let me feel that you’re real
That I’m not sleeping
It’s really happening

Like a careless whisper in the night
I let myself drown in the dreamless sea
Where my paranoia dies
Leaving me to be like a normal being

I used to know myself one day
Loving the world so deep
Never caring about what they say
I dreamt and lived the way I did

Years of rises and falls
Made my heart cold
I wish I could be
The real me
To be loved for what I am
Even a broken paranoid

I’m not that perfect, not a saint
Depressed and problematic
Though the things are clear
You see this, dear

I’m not gonna lie this time
Just open your eyes
And you will see
The real me

Voiceless scream
A bleeding scar within
Like a prayer without faith
Will this endless inner war end?

They say it’ll pass by
That time will heal
I just wanna be alright
I wanna feel real

Dizzy days, withering faces
I’m stuck in the web of laces
With my heart bleeding eternally
Hoping still to love unconditionally

They say it’ll pass by
That time will heal
I just wanna be alright
I wanna feel real

I’m lost in the whirl of past days
When I thought it was one of a million ways
The right one to heal
Everything that hurts within

My hidden obsession
Turns into my tearing confession
When I look at every word
I wrote here in the name of love

They say it’ll pass by
That time will heal
I just wanna be alright
I wanna feel real

They say it’s just a stroke
That it’ll pass by
It’s not a stroke, it’s a hope that broke
I wanna feel fine,
Alright?

Deep in it resonates still
Like a memory of a broken feel
I know it’s one’s fault
Yet it feels like losing the whole world

Feel me now
With all your heart
It’s like a bound

I’m lost within my mind
And I’m so fucking tired
To seek the truth
I’ve lost once deep in you

You captivated me, I’ve lost this part
You came to me in my dreams
I couldn’t just ignore this hope in heart
Breaking me into pieces

Feel me now
Beyond the dream somehow
To lose myself in love

I’ll be the one
Who reads your soul
I’ll be the one for you to know
You are always in my heart

I’ll be the one
To read your mind like an open book
I’ll be your guide
Your guardian angel and dream so true
Just close your eyes
And let me find you

I don’t know where to go
I don’t know what shall I do
This road is too long to follow
So I take a step to make it through

If you feel the same longing
Listen to this call and let it lead you
Your heart is calling
I know it’s true, well make it through

I’ll be the one to follow
Through the madness of the dark
To face bright light of tomorrow
Take my hand and write this story from the start