Forbidden desire, forgotten password
Long lost wishes like ever gone chord

Dying leaves fall apart with October call
Dancing slowly while their last fall
A song of time, silent promise undone
It was a short game just for fun

Forbidden things have their secret charm
They give us joy but also do harm
That fleeting happiness goes with a blink
Your promise I kept within was only a dream

I wish I could let it go and feel nothing more
But I’m a dreamer and still caress a hope
To find that one true and deep love

It all was a game, just a part of the score
A child’s dream broken but never gone

If only I could let it go
Just to feel again my soul
As it used to be

Oh, if only I could go home
I wish I could feel love
To be free

Set me free, let me feel peace
I wish to know the sense of relief
Just release me, please
I cannot boil in this all anymore
Let me go, let me go, let me go

Closed door within my mind
Like all those burning lies
Never let me feel alright

Dark windows and empty loft
I wish I could find love
Like I used to believe once long ago

Though I am not a kid anymore
I have to go…
Don’t miss me, do you?

We all are broken several times
There is a burning world within our eyes
I see it deep in you
You see it, too
We both know pain better than those who whine
We are broken but still alive
So please, hold me tight
I will save a place for you in my heart

Please, give me that inner peace
I need it now more than ever before
Give me hope and all sweet bliss
So I could find my way back home
Please, please, please, please

Oh, I feel so bad
I long for you without regret
Oh, please, it’s like damn disease
I cannot forget, cannot find any ease
Make me breathe
Just let it end

It hurts so bad
I thought you could be a friend
But it’s all fucked up
This beautiful love

You see what I am and used to be
The darkness within
Everything I hide from the world
You’ve seen it all

Oh, let me feel no suffering
Let me forget the pain and everything
Oh, please, be my last resort
So I just could rest from the world
Make me have faith
Just let it end

One step closer and we fly
One step ahead and we fall
Mo more tears, they all die
There is no checkpoint, not at all
Let me feel and smile
Before this moment is gone

Silence can hurt more than the sharpest word
Stabbing through the heart like a knife made of ice cold steel
Even one word can heal deepest scars that still hurt
So I could rest for a while and dream

Give me white wings to fly above
Across the distance so far just to see
That this endless longing is love
So I can rest still and caress this feel
I silently lull deep within

Myriads of mirrors cascade from the sky to show us the real
Where we walk apart, but still see each other in dreams
Smoke and dust never cut off the ways we haven’t reached still
Just to make sure this path shows the truth of yet untold feels

Give me white wings to fly above
Across the distance so far just to see
That this endless longing is love
So I can rest still and caress this feel
I silently lull deep within

Don’t say that my heart went wrong
This is the way I feel
I cannot help it but I long only more
For the truth that still lives in me

My longing is deep, but the reality is deeper
Every morn I keep on waiting within
Embracing the hope that goes sweeter
For one more try I’d give my everything

One look, sweet smile
Long term promises and honeydew dreams
Drunken nights of moonlit wine
Singing rock songs along midnight streets
I love this precious dream of mine

Am I asking too much?
One single look
One dreamless touch
Upon the white night view

I just want to be needed, to be loved
To be that one reason
For a sweet smile upon your face
Feelings deep as falling from grace

The reason to feel strong wings behind your back
The desire as deep as dark abyss
And sweeter than hot kisses on an empty track
I wanna be this midnight promise
We both don’t want to lose

The feeling so deep
I’m losing my sleep
I wanna break these chains
To fall in your embrace
Just call my name
I need this dream to come real
It’s all the same

All I need to be loved
We all seek this, don’t we?
Trough the everyday life
And surfing the web lying without sleep

Walking through the white night streets
Writing real all those dreams
I used to hide deep within my heart
With the one I can call my love

Close the door
Let yourself lie down
This is your secret resort

No more lies
No more hiding
Let you be just who you are
You are fine…

They say I’m spoiled
They say I’m weird
So let it be
I am what I am

I’m just human
A sinner, a lonely soul so fucking tired
That tried so hard to be the part of the crowd
But I’m so done

Every rule is cut deep upon my skin
Every no is just noise in my mind
I can do everything
I am just fine
I am fine
I’m fucking fine!

Slowly dying within
I keep on smiling
Diving deeper into insanity
I carve every memory
To feel alive
To know I’m fine

I wanna break free
From my dark mind play
Too tired for just being
Too tired to feel afraid

Let me go
I just wanna go home

Days of fading, we are the new beginning
Stay or fuck off
Join my delirious trip of daydreaming
Feel hatred or love
I am but playing and pretending
So just go

Selfish and naive
I always play this game
Ending up as a fool
Falling in love so true

Paralyzed and hypnotized
I feel and act like drunk
Test me, I am sober, yet so mesmerized
With the way how I’m done

This is the other end
When it’s all my heart to blame
For falling in love everytime I feel
It could be real

I’m so scared and cold
It’s like the end of the world
I’m but a coward to end it all
A little farewell and go

Too scared to go this way
Too selfish to fade away
Even if it’s damn hard
There is a lesson of karma

Though still I have these thoughts
They don’t leave me alone
I’m afraid and tired of this all
Wishing deep inside just to be gone

Don’t judge me
I cannot handle it
I’m lost and trembling in fear
Wishing so bad just to disappear

Afraid and lost
Lost and alone
In this damn cruel world
God, forgive my soul…

Like the deepest wound
I bleed in soul
And it seems there is no way out

It hurts like endless hell
Without any hope to let me rest
Help, please, I need help

I know this feel
I know it well, believe
Don’t tell me you understand
Don’t say that it’ll end
I know, but I’m losing myself now
Circling round and round
I just wanna to feel fine
I just wanna be alright

This bound is my everyday life
Pain and smile like everything is fine
Though it’s just a usual lie

I’m trapped
There is no end
I want to escape
But there is no exit
No path to lead me
No door to take me away
From this nightmare I see every day

Help me, I cannot escape from myself being me
Save me, I cannot get up dying so deep in

Forgive me for being me
I’m just a sinner, unholy dreamer
Forget me not, dear
You were the only one to understand
What lived deep in me

Another night falls silently
Like a heartbreaking melody
Of those words lying deep still

Untold, never written
Like purity of tears ever hidden

Moonlight spills with silver beams
Like a mirror of dreams
Silent waters of frozen stream

We talk, eat and live
Spinning our world around something dear
For love and purity within
We walk, seek and believe
One day changes everything
Just close your eyes and hear
The melody of your own feeling

The darkest hour will fade away
Like a memory of a long gone day
But the feel will still remain
Without anger, without pain

Feel your soul singing
Feel your heart dreaming
Of those lines unwritten yet
Of those eyes the heart longs for so bad

I’ve lost myself in this whirl of feelings
Longing for better times and secret dreams
Trembling to the core ’cause fear still remains

I know that nothing is known yet
All hopes are alive or already dead
Is this a new beginning or a dead end

I’m just trying my best
To live and to rest
Like tomorrow is gonna be the better place