I feel like an endless search
I long for an only touch
Please, let me feel
You’re not a dream

Just take my hand and hold me still
Let me feel that you’re real
That I’m not sleeping
It’s really happening

Like a careless whisper in the night
I let myself drown in the dreamless sea
Where my paranoia dies
Leaving me to be like a normal being

I used to know myself one day
Loving the world so deep
Never caring about what they say
I dreamt and lived the way I did

Years of rises and falls
Made my heart cold
I wish I could be
The real me
To be loved for what I am
Even a broken paranoid

I’m not that perfect, not a saint
Depressed and problematic
Though the things are clear
You see this, dear

I’m not gonna lie this time
Just open your eyes
And you will see
The real me

Voiceless scream
A bleeding scar within
Like a prayer without faith
Will this endless inner war end?

They say it’ll pass by
That time will heal
I just wanna be alright
I wanna feel real

Dizzy days, withering faces
I’m stuck in the web of laces
With my heart bleeding eternally
Hoping still to love unconditionally

They say it’ll pass by
That time will heal
I just wanna be alright
I wanna feel real

I’m lost in the whirl of past days
When I thought it was one of a million ways
The right one to heal
Everything that hurts within

My hidden obsession
Turns into my tearing confession
When I look at every word
I wrote here in the name of love

They say it’ll pass by
That time will heal
I just wanna be alright
I wanna feel real

They say it’s just a stroke
That it’ll pass by
It’s not a stroke, it’s a hope that broke
I wanna feel fine,
Alright?

Deep in it resonates still
Like a memory of a broken feel
I know it’s one’s fault
Yet it feels like losing the whole world

Feel me now
With all your heart
It’s like a bound

I’m lost within my mind
And I’m so fucking tired
To seek the truth
I’ve lost once deep in you

You captivated me, I’ve lost this part
You came to me in my dreams
I couldn’t just ignore this hope in heart
Breaking me into pieces

Feel me now
Beyond the dream somehow
To lose myself in love

I’ll be the one
Who reads your soul
I’ll be the one for you to know
You are always in my heart

I’ll be the one
To read your mind like an open book
I’ll be your guide
Your guardian angel and dream so true
Just close your eyes
And let me find you

I don’t know where to go
I don’t know what shall I do
This road is too long to follow
So I take a step to make it through

If you feel the same longing
Listen to this call and let it lead you
Your heart is calling
I know it’s true, well make it through

I’ll be the one to follow
Through the madness of the dark
To face bright light of tomorrow
Take my hand and write this story from the start

This desire makes me crave for more
Bleeding at last to the core
Lust lies deep
Beyond love’s weep

Bite your lips
Make me reach your heart
Made of stone and sins
Yet so tender inside
That I’m losing my mind

You are my dream
And my deadliest sin
Make me pray for more
Lying bleeding in midnight awe

My deepest bliss lies within
Dark sea I paint with my feel
I believe it all was real

Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha
Dream, love, dream
So deep within your heart
We live to reach this feel
They all used to call love

Breaking through the waves of pain
I know what I’ll gain
Golden sun kiss at the end of day
In the end we all will go away

My love is my own sin
Rotting within
It all was a dream

Dream, love, dream
Deep within your bleeding heart
Smile like you are whole within
With every single part

I still believe
One day will bring me sweet relief
Like a kiss of hope
And my heart won’t bleed anymore
I believe…

One day everything will be alright
I know, I have this feeling
Everytime when I look at all my scars
I just keep on believing

Walking on forever
I’m like dancing with fever
Losing myself in a faded mirror
I’m gonna be fine or gone

Read through my eyes
This hope is my last resort
Like a prayer in the night
I remember every smile I’ve got

Dreaming is my only way of believing
To know everything is gonna be alright
And I lose myself in a whirl of feeling
Just to be real, to know I can be fine

Close my eyes
Heal my scars
Let me lie down upon still fresh grass
Let me feel alive once
Just don’t fade away in a dream
I want to believe in

Deep within I see
Lost dreams are real
Deep within I know
What’s meant to fade will go

All the untold words I will memorize
Deep inside my bleeding heart
Like a path to paradise
The dream leads me to the start
Where hidden wishes lie

I see another dawn
I want to go
So far away now
Not to feel, not to see
Every pain within
Tell me, please, I’m loved

Strings weep by the fire
Of my flaming soul
Burning still with the same desire
I’ve heard once in the song

Tell me, please, that I deserve this
To be loved, to be the one to kiss
I need it all, everything and more
I wish to be one’s whole world
But now I wanna go home

I know it’s been too much
The great desire, this wish to touch
I’ve played this game to feel so high
But in the end I’ve lost my mind

This night is dark
Like a dead bride’s gown
No light inside
But this eternal frown
I see it deep within dark velvet eyes
Of black still starless skies

The truth was there from the start
Right in my hoping heart
But I was blind to see it then
Too naive to send farewell

My search goes on
Through all the open doors
This hope for love
Like the river of light it still flows
And leaves a dream so sweet within
To share it with a special one yet still unseen

We haven’t met, but I know for sure
I’ll love you back, your heart so pure
No pain, no hesitation
Just be the one who shows action

I long for deeds, not words
Speak less, do more
So I could leave those distant hopes
Save me, be my home
I’ll be the key to your closed doors

One day I’m gonna be fine
Everything will be alright…

But now I’m losing my mind
I’m selling my heart just for a kind smile
I’m crying through the night
I’m not fine, I’m not fine

Deep inside I knew
It was true
But I couldn’t realize
I was badly mesmerized

I know one day
Everything’s gonna be okay
But now I’m lost and torn
Like broken hope unborn

One day I’m gonna be fine
And everything will be alright
It won’t hurt deep inside
Tearing me fucking apart

Oh, please, save my heart
Let me dream alive
Let me be fine
One more time…

One day I’m gonna be fine
Just one more time

Empty within, eaten by sins
No love for myself, no love for anyone
I’m losing my mind
I’m gone with the wind

I’m crying, I’m crying still
Wishing to be the one
For the one I love
But there is nothing within

We seek the only path
Like it’s gonna be for lifetime
We believe so and long for
This fateful meet just like before

Tell me it’s not in vain
Tell me feelings remain
Tell me there left no pain

I long for another promise
So bad I miss, so bad I miss
Everything you gave me once
The faith, the hope, inner peace

Tell me I can be fine
Tell me I’m not losing my mind
Tell me my heart goes right

Suffocating alone in this misery
I long for one breath just to feel
This is just a bad memory
That it’s not real, it’s not real